Head Games

Ever have one of those days/weeks/months where nothing makes sense? If not, consider yourself fortunate. For those of us with a touch of OCD, nothing is more irritating than discovering that we can't make the dots connect!

In the spirit of "I'm ok, you're ok," I've succumbed to the pressure of seeing a therapist. You know the deal - you pay someone to listen to you, then hope they don't excuse themselves from the room so they can dial 911.

I've been down this road before, and my last experience was positive. In fact, my life would be totally different if I hadn't talked to a professional about what a loser I was 10 years ago!

This time, I have more trepidation. Actually, I think I just have more shit to figure out, which is never pleasant. But I've committed, so I'm going. And like my good friends advised, "I'm not messing around. I'm laying it all out there." What was I thinking?

So now that I've "put it out there," I guess I have to do something about it all. I'm trying to listen carefully to my "inner self" - to actually formulate an action plan, instead of just smiling and nodding (I'm really good at nodding). It's not easy, and it's not fun.

So why do it? I've spent many hours pondering that very question, and I'm still not sure what my response might be. The pursuit of happiness? Inner peace? World peace?

And what if in the end, I'm no better off than when I started?

WTF?

Blogger's Block - that's what I call it in my mind. It's not like I don't have things running through my head (24/7), but maybe they're running so fast that I can't catch them and put them all into words.

Family - how do I find a way to keep mine intact while apart? How is all of this affecting my kids? How is it affecting me? WTF?

Friends - who are they? And if they aren't, why not? WTF?

Work - what matters? What doesn't? How do I figure out which is which? WTF?

Love - do I have it to give? Will someone offer it to me? Do I want it? Can I accept it? WTF?

Life - WTF?

When One Door Closes...

Does another one really open? Or is it just my imagination? I'll have to get back to you...

Another Day in Milwaukee.....

Woman shoots herself with concealed gun
Today's lesson in gun safety:
According to a criminal complaint, Josephine Wagner, 30, told Milwaukee police that she was walking north on N. Teutonia Ave. on Wednesday with a friend and had a gun tucked into a cloth holster in the front of her pants.
In the 2900 block, Wagner ducked behind some bushes to heed nature's call and shot herself while pulling down her pants, the complaint says.
The bullet shattered her right femur and exited the back of her thigh. She was treated at Froedtert Hospital in Wauwatosa.
Monday, Wagner was charged with a misdemeanor, carrying a concealed weapon.
The complaint says she told police why she had the gun: "Walking up Teutonia ain't nice. It can be kinda scary."

Why Can't We All Just Get Along?